Abu-Abu (grey)

by Femi Nolce (November 13, 2010)

Suatu ketika; (One time;)
perempuan itu, dengan kedua tangan terlipat menumpu kepala yang tertunduk, (that girl, bowed her head, hide her face behind her hands,)
tersudut dalam ruang kamar tanpa cahaya. (right in the corner of her room with no light.)
Hening… (Silent…)
***

Sesaat, isak memecah sunyi; (Suddenly,I hear sound in the silent;)
dia (perempuan itu) menangis. (she was crying)
Dalam ratap sayup suaranya lirih berucap: (While cried, she said softly:)
“TUHAN, betapa peliknya gumulku.” (“GOD, how I’m struggling, and it’s too complicated.”)
***
Banyak yang keluar dari mulutnya, (She told too much,)
namun tak semua dapat ku simak. (but I couldn’t hear all.)
Suaranya bergetar, dan terkadang tertelan isak, (Her voice shaking, and sometimes it disappear of her crying,)
tak dapat ku cerna. (I did not know what her saying.)
Ku kira, dia masih menangisi hidupnya. (I guessed, she still cried for her life.)
Ingin ku peluk, tapi aku ragu. (I wanna hold her, but I doubted.)
Ku biarkan saja dia dengan laranya. (I let her with her pain.)
***

Lalu, aku duduk di sampingnya. (Then, I sat beside her.)
Sambil bersandar, ku letakkan kepalaku di bahunya. (I leaned on her, and I putted my head on her shoulder.)
“Sayang, inilah hidup. (“Dear, this how life is.)
Terkadang kau butuh masalah untuk menjadi sabar dan kuat. (Sometimes, you need problem to be patient and strong.)
Terkadang tersenyum membuatmu terlihat baik-baik saja, (Sometimes, smile makes you look okay,)
tapi airmata mampu melegakan. (but tears able to relieve.)
Masih ingatkah kau pada orang tua yang penuh luka di sekujur tubuhnya? (Did you remember an old man with so many scars on his body?)
Aku percaya, DIA sedang ingin bicara denganmu. (I do believe, HE wanna talk to you.)
Cobalah berhenti untuk menyalahkan dirimu, (Try to stop blamed yourself,)
dan bukalah hatimu untukNya. (and opened your heart to Him.)
Semua pasti akan baik-baik saja,” kataku… (Everything will be okay,” I said…)
***

Ku rasa, sudah ku lakukan tugasku. (I thought, I’ve done what I need to do.)
Aku melangkah pergi. (I stepped out of the room.)
Dan saat ku balikkan badanku, (And at the time, I turned,)
ku dapati dia (perempuan itu) sedang berlutut -dia berdoa-  (I found her on her knees -praying-)
***
Aku tersenyum. (I smiled.)
Batinku, “terima kasih TUHAN, Kau tak pernah meninggalkannya…” (I told to myself, “thank GOD, You never leave her…”)
*** 

PS:

She = ME
I = my imagination as the other ME

It’s about how I try to strengthen myself

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